Wednesday, April 14, 2004

Current song: "With Whom To Dance" by Magnetic Fields.

OK, I have been having some BIZARRE dreams lately. I'm not sure if it's something I have been eating (which, admittedly, hasn't been much...) or what, but it's tripping me out! Last night's dream was the strangest yet. I don't even think I can really summarize what it was about... It's literally not that kind of dream. What I can do, though, is give you a few of the contents of the dream. You can feel free to shuffle these fragments around and come up with an interpretation if you would like.... GOOD LUCK!

Troy's Latest Non-Drug-Induced Bizarro-World Dream's Contents:
>> James VanDerBeek.
>> My winning a gunfight in the streets of some city against a band of thugs
>> A panicked romp around an abandoned house looking for my tax info because I have yet to submit my taxes. (This part is actually pretty close to real life I'm afraid.)
>> Someone struggling with bladder control.
>> A girl I met at a coffee shop a few days ago who was really nice (potentially TOO nice) and then gave me a phone number as she was leaving--letting me know it was her FIANCE'S number.

Messed up life is mine....

So I'm not what one might call a "good cook." I can take care of a few simple things in the kitchen--not much else I'm afraid. But two days ago, I finally accomplished something that has been elusive for way too long: grilled cheese. Yes, I know--SIMPLE tr0y! The problem hasn't been making them. The dilemma for years has been this: THE PERFECT GRILLED CHEESE! You know what I'm talking about. It's the one where the cheese is melted perfectly, so that it is just barely peeking out of the sides of the bread, which has been cooked up to the perfect shade of brown, bearing NO burnt corners or edges. It was PERFECTION. I actually didn't want to defile with by eating it. I badly wanted a camera so I could show off. But, alas, my stomach called out and won over my artistic commitment. Sorry boys and girls.

Next culinary endeavor: a pesto sauce that doesn't taste like BUTT! (I've never even been close to this one... and pesto is one of my favorite tastes....)

Please send recipes to:




Tuesday, April 13, 2004

Current song: "Stella Was A Diver" by Interpol.

Didn't sleep very well the last 2 hours I was laying down. For some demented reason, this Top 5 came into my head... And I now give it to you:

Top 5 Things I Will Never Be Overheard Saying About Music:
1. "Stop making fun of Nick and Jessica!!"
2. "You have anything by John Denver or The Carpenters?"
3. "I really miss Fred Durst and Limp Bizkit."
4. "P-Diddy..."
5. "Mmmmmm... Chumbawumba!!"


Monday, April 12, 2004

I forgot I had one more thing to post. Today's most important of all things to communicate too!!

John Stamos and Rebecca Romijn-Stamos (who isn't ugly) are calling it quits. That's right boys and girls, Uncle Jesse is going to be single again. Looks like it's no longer a "Full House" for that couple. (Sorry... trying to figure out how to include that reference so that people who didn't know who John Stamos is, besides the gifted and diverse actor that we know and love thanks to his dynamic roles in.... ummm.....

Anyway, he's single.


Current song: "Bad Diary Days" by Pedro the Lion.

I woke up this morning singing a Kenny Rogers song. WHAT?!?! Even as I wrote that, I can't believe it actually happened!! What demented dreams did I have that forced The Gambler into my head?!?!

My friends Steve and Jenny are stopping by tonight as they look for a house in the area. I couldn't be MORE excited. I'm definitely needing to see some familiar faces right now.

Current song: "We've Been Had" by The Walkmen. (See Cait--we have good taste in music huh?!?!)


Sunday, April 11, 2004

I saw snowflakes this morning. Can't begin to express how frustrated that makes me. Actually don't even want to talk about it anymore.

Got my first piece of mail at the new address. One of my favorite people on the planet sent me the best postcard filled with GR facts. So Lisa, thank you, thank you, THANK YOU!! You are amazing and wonderful and deserving of a gigantic hug. (Not from me, but someone you want to be hugged by!!)

I was thinking today about what kind of "state" I am in right now. I am feeling pretty good generally. People have been amazingly kind and generous and thoughtful. Still, I feel a little fragile inside. Sort of like a house of cards, ready to tumble over any second with a little too much pushing. Daily it gets a little better and I feel a little stronger. I just am coming to realize how important being connected to people in significant ways is to me. Wandering through families and couples and things like that everywhere I go it seems pounds home this feeling of disconnectedness. And regardless of how great other things seem to be, I am convinced that the things in my life are better shared. As much as I like my place, this town, my new job, the people that I am meeting.... It just isn't the same by myself I guess.

Maybe that's why I have blogged these L...O...N...G posts lately. This makes me feel less alone.

Current song: "Poses" by Rufus Wainwright. (If you don't have this or know this, GET IT! It's moving and beautiful and desperate and all good things meloncholic.)

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